Cherry blossoms take me there. They do. They bring my awareness back to a time where I traveled across the world in search of myself for myself. I began to live abroad for extended periods of time and was able to reclaim integral parts of myself that may of been sheltered in some compressed form living in the United States. Honestly, the initiation of this journey over 7 years ago was heart opening. And I am finding the spirit of that time upon me once again. So with that, I am on the move.

The world is a totally different place now and is dramatically changing by the day. The former paradigm is becoming dust as we set forth to realize the new. It's falling; wilting. And I find that the woman I was in the old world is going through a similar process in more ways than one.

“Like a snake sheds its skin, we are capable of getting rid of assembled habits, creating space to call matters into question. Instead of the Shakespearian " To be or not to be " we could favor " to become or not to become". By "becoming", we challenge the range of possibilities in our life and go beyond the merely "being". We can retreat, then, from the imprisonment of a deadly routine, acquire an identity and develop our personality. ― Erik Pevernagie

I'm happy to be back. And although to you this is my hello ― I also am saying goodbye. Bye to what ? To my former selves and who and what they came with. The people, places and things that were parts of my journey in the seasons that have passed. I am surrendering to the cease. And allowing my flowering.

“A flower blossoms for its own joy.” ― Oscar Wilde


As I travel, I am gradually learning Spanish and I find that I am often speaking it fluently in my dreams. It's pretty dope, I must say. Recently, as I was in the midst of prepping for my extended travel itinerary, several dreams began to speak to me through the entrance of my heart. Again, it was a feeling akin to my heart opening and taking its new breath. And it goes deep. It was what I now perceive as a call to shed and progress into my new world in greater receptivity. This would eventually come with natural sacrifice but I felt aligned in this endeavor and liked the idea of creating more space in my life. So, of course, I listened to to these intuitive nudges. Especially with them being quite emotionally moving.

*ASTRO BIT: For those of you into (or curious about) astrology ― I have my Venus placement in Aquarius. So in large part, I tend to be difficult to move emotionally (specifically heartfelt emotions). I can easily detach from my emotions or convert them into dwelling in more logical / mental faculties. So the heart opening portion of this phase reveals part of a pinnacle point of what is to come.

The language of my dreams has been changing drastically and my waking life is beginning to mirror its ebbs and flows. It's prophetic in a sense. I feel so closely in tune with my inner parts. I am able to reflect on things with a new pair of eyes. And I hold more grace in my body than ever before as I surrender and let go. It's a state that I have always desired. And here I am... becoming. Becoming so much more because I have allowed more. And my dreams have brought me here.


A record as a dream in sound.

This record is a dream in sound. And as it reveals part of my transformative journey ― it lends a soundscape for dreamers who are called to do the same. Keep going; keep dreaming.

Lo Siento Release date: 8.8.2020

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Love you. - ÄR